Monday, May 31, 2004
9:49 PM
my tag board is dead. resurrection didn't seem possible. hence, i got a new one instead. memories r gone. so ppl, pls try to revive the laz few posts by wreckin ur brain, if u need to.
father's on leave today. preparing for his trip to USA. went round town looking for a proper suit. i suppose he bought it later in the evening.
went round town, found a few new bags, leading to a new wish list. lurve the DKNY tote bag. of course, the price is just as lovable. S$159.20 after discount. but, im determined 2 get it.
saw andrea's blog. i foresee dat i will face dis v.soon. i fear. fear of not getting my exco position. i'm okie if i cant really get the president post. im just hoping that i can get a humble exco post, and cliff is not the president. buden again, i do fear failure. i noe i wun b able 2 accept the fact.
this thesis is not without evidence. apparently, my debate president did not email mi abt the schedule fer the hols. n yups, oni the sch team was informed abt the trainin 2dae. dey called mi dis mornin askin if i was goin fer the trainin 2dae. apparently, dey received a sms fr the president, which of cuz, didn't reach mi.
oh wadever, i cant do anitink now. it was my fault, my mistake, my stupidity. stupid enuf to still habour the tot of being the president.
goodnite.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, May 29, 2004
3:35 PM
alrite. my life is incredible. dumbass lyks mi, i lyk him, he lyks sum1 else. wow. vicious cycle man. where is dis gona lead mi to? bah.
actuali, m i depressed? nah. sad? nah. juz kinda empty. feel lyk s if i juz dun haf e rite 2 lyk him animore. buden i dun reali haf e rite 2 lyk him in e first plc. in fact, tinks can b quite simple.
i stil contd nt lykin dat dumbass, n stop lykin him n he juz contd lykin sum1 else. aniwaes, moz impt tink nw is to do well fer my JCT isn't it? haiz* seriously speakin, my internship fer law at the end of dis yr is the most impt tink in lyf. if i can gt dis internship, i wil definitely gif up anitink dat i haf nw. it has always been my dream.
aniwaes, db8 2dae was pretty okie. opted nt 2 vie fer the plc in the sch team. realised dat i rather b alil more quiet in dis jc. since i dun reali haf my bunch of monkeys wif mi. hu seriously britens up my dae alil. or @ least if manda is here i wld b alil, or much happier. C=
oh ya, pretty crazy 2dae durin db8. aniwaes, i've decided 2 run fer db8 pres. hopefully i can make it. i'll juz pray.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Friday, May 28, 2004
10:41 AM
it's bad, it's seriously bad dis tym round. let's name dis person pathetic. he msged mi yest nite, tellin mi abt dis new gal hu came into his camp. tons of ppl said dat she was pretty, but he tot dat she was rather norm.
being bored n inquisitive, i replied 2 dat msg [which i shdnt haf]. fine n he told mi dat he oreadi has sum1 in mind. but dat sum1 lyks a guy in her sch. fine. n he asked abt whether i stil lyk e guy.
being naive n daft, i replied again. i said no. he was oni my eye candy. [realisin e fact dat he mite go gossip wif his mum aka my mum's colleague] den i contd by askin him 2 share abt e gal he lyks. hw she looks lyk blah blah blah. fuck. it was the biggest mistake in life. he told mi dat dis gal is stil studyin, n he had no means of meetin her.
being ignorant, an idiot lyk mi hu has no brains, continued askin him. fine, he replied dat he started carryin a torch fer dis gal since his injury. moreover, dis is the gal hu msged him 2 ask hw he was durin his period of recupperation, other den his 2 campmates.
OKIE, DEAD. im dead meat. why ain't heaven sympathisin pathetic ppl lyk dis? showerin concern on a fren will lead 2 such unwanted problems? cant diff genders b platonic frens? i hate dis. dis isn't wad i wanted. is dis retribution? but wad did i do to deserve dis.
1. i nv wanted such tinks 2 happen.
2. i nv xpected such tinks 2 happen.
3. i nv lyked him.
4. he's not the one.
5. i oreadi found the one.
6. i wil not lyk / accept ani1 else, xcept the one. [though it's impossible]
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Thursday, May 27, 2004
4:24 PM
i finally finally finally watched troy. oh man, orlando bloom's a coward. cant stand him. buden aniwaes, i'll gif the movie 4 out of 5 bites. keke* caught the movie wif pamie. the bof of us were shiverin in GV, goodness, it was reali cold.
was called bac 2 tj wen we were in the bus 2 tm dis mornin. went bac le, end up oso nv play. shdn't haf gone bac in e first plc. bah.
oh ya, bot my hair straightenin cream from the body shop. oh ya and ate pastamania fer lunch. wa lao.. broker den ever..
aniwaes, yups, pretty short entry 2dae. gona catch the drama tml wif manda. mtin ed too in tj. miss my sec sch mates alot.. C=
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
10:41 PM
finally! sports carnival is here. however, to my disappointment, it was utterly borin'. oh man, temasek idol was so disappointin'. OTHER DEN D7 n erm.. dunno wad's the name, buden i noe it comprises of Johan. haha* dat guy's cool. in SPP, buden oso play elec. guitar. so glad dat he was in my OG. C= proud of him! oh ya, D7 is cool, cuz Yazid is part of it. oh man, his dance was seriously the best. oh man, my 27th SC president.
gosh, tokin' abt it. i felt so sad 2dae. im so sad wen yazid stepped dwn 2dae. nt dat im infatuated. cuz yazid is seriously the best president i've eva seen. oh god, wuzup nw? ROYSTON. god muz haf been wantin 2 let mi c the other side of life. [the negative side, dat is] haiz* wad can i do rite? make do wif wad i'm given by god den.
aniwaes, aniwaes, the best part of sports carnival is dis. we left school so early! hehe* though we weren't supposed 2. so pamie, reb n i tot of catchin' troy. buden dun haf!!! ahh* oni knew wen pamie n i arrived in bugis. buden nvm, had gd lunch in mos. yups, den dearest rajesha finally arrived. so the 3 of us went round shoppin', lookin' at stuff. erm sum stuff i gt 2dae.
1. 2 pens - kinokuniya [i oso dunno y i buy, cuz it's nice? impulsive buyin']
2. earrin' - perlini's silver [i simply lurve dis C=]
3. Maroon5 cd - sembawang [FINALLY!!!]
4. took fotos [my favourite tink 2 do!]
hence, i declare bankcruptcy.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Monday, May 24, 2004
5:37 PM
im sad, dpressed, hurt. eileen asked mi the question 2dae. 'do u still lyk him?'. im lost. i reali din noe hw 2 ans her. do i still lyk him? is he still the one? i pondered upon this in the cab...
b4 dat, met him in sch once again. i nv expected myslf 2 b so suay. y suay rite? i mean u gt 2 c the guy u lyk.. buden the tink is cuz, we din sae hi. oni his fren nearest 2 mi gave mi a polite hi. mayb as eileen said, i shdnt haf avoided him in e 1st plc. y did i even shun wen we can b frens? basically, and apparently, im daft. im juz nt in the rite mind to tink rationally. aniwaes, it's matters of the heart.
actuali i shdnt feel hurt at all. as my mum said as well, u started ignorin him. it's oni rite fer him 2 ignore u! yes, i noe. it's all my fault. nvm.
i noe i wil get over in tym to cum. i can.
P.S: eileen, tankew so much fer dese advice! C=
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
10:41 PM
goodness. missed the VJCO concert + tuition dis mornin. n im supposed 2 go wif wendy fer both events, so 2 speak. y? cuz of my stressed induced headache as my doctor calls it. wendy = headache? haha* juz a dumb equation. dun quote mi on dat. she's gona kill mi.. rite wendy?
went 2 compass pt later in the day. still not feelin v.well though. bought tons of files n a book stand. i nv seem 2 haf my stuff neatly kept. chun hsien, do not assume dat i buy branded stuff liao. c poor mi 2dae hafta resort 2 buyin the cheapest popular files n on sale bookstand. c how thrifty i am? C=
haiz* dis is bad. i nv seem 2 b able 2 complete dat stupidly thick stack of econs tys pgs. is lyk everytym i flip a pg, i feel lyk s if i've completed the whole pile. alas, it's oni one thin pg, out of the thick stack. shucks.
oh ya, did i mention SHUCKS? oh ya. realise dat i din scold anitink more den dat 2dae? yup, my mum's askin mi 2 stop swearin. simply cuz she went 2 the temple 2dae n sum note told her dat i shd do more charity n stuff. yes, i noe it's inherently bad. buden fathom the fact dat sum ppl [i shall not mention names] do deserve 2 b scolded dat way. simply bcuz dey r acting dat way. furthermore, it is inborn in dem 2 act dat way, thus i do not want 2 change their attitude s well. cuz u can prolly c dem in the museum in future. 'most absurd character / attitude' monument. bah. juz being daft here.
okie, dat's it. god, bless me with more $ so i can do good deeds n thus, givin mi the freedom of speech to scold wad i used 2 scold. C=
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Friday, May 21, 2004
11:37 PM
great. i bot loads of stuff today. had lunch @ jack's plc. my mum took half dae so we went shoppin, aft sum movements 2 my teeth. den we shopped ard in wisma n centrept. my mum bot a new fone, Nokia 3120. pretty cool. erm, lemme see wad i bot.
1. nokia 6230 - xpress on cover. buden is blue. [stil nt bad la.. out of my wishlist le]
2. Marks n Spencer beige skirt
3. Marks n Spencer dark green canvas handbag [dis bag is reali nice..]
4. Speedo swimming costume [duno y i buy though is the last swimmin lesson]
5. Xcessories - green hairband [yups, prepin 2 tie up my hair]
but of cuz, der's a bad tink abt goin shoppin. i spotted 2 more stuff i wana gt.
1. nike sling bag - beige : $99
2. nike toiletries bag - dark blue - $26
IM BROKE.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Thursday, May 20, 2004
8:57 PM
oh goodness. i seriously cant stand dis gal. lets call her FLIRT [is the nicest word i can find]. trust me man, she is THE most horrible person on earth. let me now prove my stand.
1. she makes use of ppl lyk no one's business. she goes 2 her ex classmates, den wen she has no one 2 turn 2, she'll call u 2 haf lunch wif her. FUCK.
2. she ASSUMES dat she does nutink wrong 2 her frens, thus, she's AMAZED dat im PISSED WITH HER. FUCK.
3. she FLIRTS wif her snr when her LEGITIMATE BOYFRIEND is in rj. n nw wen her snr lyks her, SHE REJECTS HIM. bloody whore. fuckin' bitch.
4. she sits wif a bunch of us hu r bitchin, n listened thru e bitchin session n suddenly says in chi "DON'T TALK BAD ABOUT OTHERS". FUCK HER. singapore gifs mi the freedom of speech. so lemme tell u "FUCK OFF!"
5. n she saes "YOU SUCK" wen u say dat her snr is not hao kan. n she will hit ur hand if u say dat. SO MUCH FER BEING A FREN. n she wil stare in2 e foto intently, n stil claimin dat she does not lyk her snr [as in a relationship]. LIAR.
Hence, i conclude dat her existence on earth does not serve much of a purpose. other den being a vice fer mi 2 get fed up with, i dun c y she shd contd 2 be on this earth. FUCK OFF.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Monday, May 17, 2004
6:22 PM
fark. fug. FUCK. whichever way u spell it. i realised that blogs r subjected to international backlash. y ladies n gentlemen? the theory behind it is simple.
loads of ppl gt 2 noe my blog. n e bez part is how ppl can HEAR abt blogs [no names mentioned]. den wad? god noes which big mouth started spreadin abt blogs. buden again, is gd dat ppl mentioned in my blog is informed.
so idiots hu lurve 2 spread blog addresses n content of e blog, i wish dat ur mouth can just drop open n ur jaw will jut out tml. hopefully, ur mouth will also b infested by tons of creepy crawlies n b4 u noe it, ur mouth would haf disappeared.
n bcuz of such ppl hu starts spreading, more n more ppl wil noe ur blog. n more n more ppl wil cum n examine n scruntinise ur blog. n in tym to cum, u wil seriously face INTERNATIONAL BACKLASH. so ppl, do not have blogs.
houston - not towards u la. juz dumbass peeps on dese earth.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Sunday, May 16, 2004
10:21 PM
hiya! im back once again! went out wif zixin on fri. gave mi a treat at haagan daz!!! we ate fondue for two. nice man.. peeps go try it! i gif it 4 outa 5 stars! *twinkle* C=
went 2 nj food fair on sat 2 meet shumin! ahh~ i really happi 2 death lor. haha* so touched dat she actuali chiong-ed out 2 e gate 2 fetch mi, due 2 her sch's dearest security guard. dunno y leh, mayb 2 long nv c her, omoz cry. haha* too much 'gan chu' dunno hw 2 describe oso. den ate her class' cheesecake. yummy! dis im gona gif 4.5 outa 5 stars! realli cool, dunno y inside gt peach. n sumore gt gd fren 2 eat wif mi. hehe* aniwaes, im reali glad dat i managed 2 meet dis pc of charcoal. long long no c her le.. so v.happi! C= met christine too! buden i can c e blur xpression of ms.charcoal. she seemed blurified. opps. ya, cant imagine shumin so blur... her GP classmate oso cant reg. maybe due 2 the hot sun, so i dun blame her. keke*
oh e usual bunch celebrated my bdae fer mi 2dae. gona rate dis celebration 3.5 outa 5 stars. sadly, everyone was kinda full 2 go fer dinner so we oni watched a movie, van helsing. wich i tot was pretty gross. aniwaes, bdae gift is 5 outa 5 stars! *twinkles* lemme describe e bdae gift.[sounds lyk letter of e day huh?] its a blue box with white specks. there's a checked crepe paper nicely laid inside. hmm.. wow.. tons of goodies in the store!
1. dried mango (my fave!) fr aji ichiban
2. stone or rock choc (whatever u call dat)
3. sum fruit jelly (u noe dose individually packed ones)
4. nike socks (footie) [i simply lurve dis..]
5. pink hairband [wenyu said it was sweet..]
6. green hairband [wendy said it signifies temasek..]
7. baby blue hairband!!! [can strike off e wishlist]
8. pilot BPS-GP blue and black pens [in simple terms, the pen i owaes use]
9. blue and green striped coin holder [from montip i suppose]
10. kisses [i mean hershey kisses] - cookies n cream
11. kisses [same as e above] - cookies
12. a burfday card - me to u!
13. happy hse magnets
14. happy hse handfone accessory [which was mistaken as a key holder]
15. happy hse coaster [whee~ new coaster! goodie!]
16. the box? ya.. is counted as one item
i cant realli remember e 17th item. but aniwaes, e significance is dat der r 17 items...
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Sunday, May 09, 2004
5:56 PM
oh gosh. dat's it. my bdae is over. grouses r back. he's gona noe soon. very well. fucking houston told his classmates the so-called hints i gave him abt hu i lyk. yes, he ANNOUNCED it to all the fellow debators. people pls note dat i only gave him the hints after he bugged mi over an hour on the fone. n now guess wad? dey called him n asked hu is liang qi. fucked up. my dearest debate president, told him that there's a girl madly in luv wif him. of cuz, he's blur, shocked and stunned i suppose. of cuz, b4 she can tell him hu he is, i hung up the fone. of cuz i dun blame her cuz all of us db8tors r bitchy. but the very fact that fucking houston announced it to his class makes him a total BITCH. i'm irritated. he's not only a bitch, he's a fucking bitch. i tried persuading myslf to view him s a guy, however, this very incident has made mi v.determined 2 c him as a female dog. he suck.
caught 'lu yuan' on friday. wif wenyu n wendy. jie ying was really gd, acting s a kid. prolly dats her real slf? keke* aniways, zixin was real gd man.. old ah ma.. hehe* [u did well gal... no worries!] pamela reali had dat mama face. cool~ dose r my fellow 34/04 actresses. den my dearest ao math class, esther, the bareback gal. hehe* future mediacorp employees. n e production crew. shuping, wenjie, joyce, etc. reali well done ppl! however, yes HOWEVER, i really tink dat the script needs 2 go through alil more refining. not dat im gd in script riting, but the v.fact dat we audience cant understand, means dat u cant get ur ideas 2 e audience! man.. fortunately, none of my frens did e script. pheW~! anyways, dearest research co-ordinator played a minute role in e play. his 'i'll nt b wif u all 4 db8 cuz i'm xcused 4 e nxt few daes cuz im involved in the CCC production' does not seem 2 b a gd xcuse 4 him 2 gt away fr db8. all he did was 2 enter e stage, cry for a min or so, and leave! gOsh* n dis xcused him fr db8 4 a few daes. again, his absence is gd aft all. C=
okie, dats it. my final verdict 4 houston (in chinese) = 'yong bu chao sheng'.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, May 08, 2004
12:27 AM
im 17!!! yes, it's finally 8th of may. so many shocking and surprising things. actually, mainly surprising (there is a positive connotation to this). let me talk abt what happened from 6th may, all the way till now.
reached home, aft a long long day. n guess wad? received a letter. den i opened it only 2 realise dat it was from dearest SHUMIN!!! oh man.. read her card till cry. n her gift is now on my bag!!! =)
reached sch, n realised that it was raining. so no morning assembly. found e peeps in e canteen. assuming dat dey forgotten, or dun bother abt my bdae, i realli din even xpect a single ting. to my surprise, dey gt mi dis super nice purple notebk. man... i reali lurve e design. super sweet. though e purple did rmind mi of sum stuf. but again, e class has reali touched mi.
den went on 2 hist lect. houston, guo hao, etc said happi bdae 2 mi. even more surprised. nvm, den it was breaktym. wa dis one reali came as a gigantic surprise. lyk gosh.. u mean i haf a bdae cake? touched man.. tanks peeps..
oh.. nw cums 2 moz impt part. HE SAID HAPPI BDAE 2 MI!!! haha* sounds bimbotic rite? reali lor. i was over e moon wen he said happi bdae 2 mi. of cuz aft all e happiness n stuff n i started questionin hw he noe my bdae. aniwaes, sweet moment. gEeS~*
den ya, went bac fer chi play production. was good. met up wif hippo mak n wendy. den yaya, made a big ting wen we were outside e audi, oni 2 realise we were v.near him. yes, he saw mi n my stupid acts. den e production ended, went dwn 2 tok 2 my bunch of frens. n unfortunate as it owaes is, he is rite upstairs staring at us. gosh, i muz haf been utterly noisy. den s we were leavin, wenyu n wendy attracted attention again. oh man, ya, by pullin my bag. bah. nvm.
den zr called mi in e cab. chatted alil while. den izzati msged mi at 12 midnite sharp, while zr called mi again at 12 midnite sharp 2 wish mi happi bdae b4 turnin in. so sweet of dem~
oh ya, aniwaes, i received a pressie fr my optician. yes, shockin as it may hear. den bdae card fr bernie in aussie. bdae pressie fr eileen fu. fellow 8th may baby. n of cuz, his happi bdae wish.
i shall nt pour out ani of my grouses 2dae. happi bdae 2 myself. haha* stupid as it may seem.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Thursday, May 06, 2004
10:07 AM
al0ha! yups, u prolly nv seen mi happier. y? cuz der was no db8 yesterday! yahoo!!!~ anyways, it was only yesterday did i manage 2 get ample rest. started sleeping at 7pm, woke up at 9.20pm for dinner, and continued sleeping till this morning! yea!!~ haha* yups.
the 28th student council is out. zirui is the vice president and she's from my class! yea! BUT, BUT, BUT, the president sucks. oh my god. gosh, the president is like got this 'qian bian' face. can't imagine how did he become the head. oh ya, by the way, his name is royston. yucks.
anyways, some of the bad news. wasn't able to go with the ao math peeps to spotlight. bah. so sorry man. buden i blief dey had loads of fun.
and and and... yes, that person gave me a matching necklace and a pair of earrings from bits and pieces. yes, attractive shop it may seem. but he has bad taste. nvm, is the thought that counts. he bought me a bracelet as well. nice bracelet though. oh ya, forgot to stress the fact that he is that fella and not HIM. maybe u wun noe how to differentiate. why is it that fella hu noes my bdae, and not someone else??? haiz* depressed~
oh ya, zixin and gerrad broke up le. dis morning. reason shall not be revealed here. [shumin, if (prolly u will wana noe) u wana noe, i will tell u sumtym wen i mt u]. pretty sad for dem. buden i cant do anitink else but console her.
okay, that's it for today. gona pon pe and go shopping with zixin later. bye.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, May 01, 2004
9:16 PM
gosh. this is scary. guess what? i went to check out my senior's blog. found a certain trend with his blog. this is scary, im freaking out.
anyway, im stressed out. what's with 'anti-debate' propaganda and guo hao? im irritated. this debate matter is getting on my nerves. is this what is happening to my passion. fuck. maybe it just isn't my passion. but i hope i will do my best. hopefully i won't freak out during the next session.
i think blogs are dangerous. my senior's blog was found by me. leading me to my coach's blog. i think they are v.shocked. shocked by the fact that i found their blog i suppose. fyi, guo hao seemed 2 b xtremely interested to know what's my blog. yes, this is when my theory sets in. all the more u wana noe, all the more i wun wana tell u. i dun care if u tink i wrote loads of stuff that's against u. so? the fact is that you are acting this way makes me puke. you suck.
let me tell you. i don't wana let you lose face. hence, giving you a smiley face and a friendly outlook. do not be deceived by that. read btwn the lines of my conversation with you, you will prolly know that i'm not in favour of your thought about anti debate stuff. do not use those stupid deductions of yours to demoralise me. i don't give a damn. enuf wif debate.
on to vjc funfair. omg!!! i met HIM!!! i was amazed, surprised, and whateva positive connotations der is for surprised. =) he really brightened up my day. as his name says so. met him a few times, headlong, that is. gosh, im smiling while typing this entry. haha. kidding. sounds so bimbotic uh? a hi from him is more than enough. yes, kelly gave him a grade of 80/100. minus 20 cuz of his tan. stupid. he deserves a 95/100. keke.
met a few peeps that i haven seen for a long long time. average amt of time. and of cuz, sum a short short time.
long term - pearlyn (2 earholes.. *shocked*), daryl (he's so diff. but juz as sweet!), carol (great change)
avg term - hui min, meghna, ziyan (miss u so muchie~!), immanuel! (kelly tot that he was kinda diff in foto. of cuz, he looks beta in person)
short term - HIM!, and of cuz, endless streams of tjc peeps.
end of entry. bye.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
