Tuesday, March 29, 2005
10:22 PM
oh did i say that i'm gonna find an abalone king?
a perfect wedding dinner for leen, wennie and erm myself?
haha* crapping again. nvm.
tho i'm seriously lookin forward to ms fu's.. 1st - 10th dish all bird nest related stuff.
1) bird nest cold dish
2) bird nest soup
3) stew mushrooms with bird nest
4) roasted pork with bird nest sauce
5) steamed sea bass with errr... bird nest sauce again???
6 - 8) ms fu... u shd like know what's on the menu right???
9) bird nest ee fu noodle or fried rice kinda thing
10) bird nest egg tart
haha* oh ya. like those chocs you bring home from the wedding dinner? u bring home a year supply of bird nest. haha* ms fu min wei's wedding dinner.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
8:53 PM
wake up. brush up. change out. perked up. and *bam* u realised that you're living the life of a rich and famous.
courtesy of someone, whose gap is probably that of mr B's waist. ( ha* decipher that. )
trust me, being well known overnight isn't a very nice thing.
-OKIE. i so dun wana scold tt word, but i really have to. can you like FUCK OFF? i know you'll like NEVER GET TO READ MY BLOG, but like STOP TELLING ME ABOUT THINGS IN YOUR LIFE U STUPID ARSE. like NO ONE, literally NO ONE will FALL FOR U. so fark off.-
oh sorry for the sudden digression, but yes, some thoughts that ran through my mind after receiving a very disturbing sms. so ya, where was i? oh yes, famous in a negative way of course. like 4 people get to read your blog, and like one of them's the crux of your entry(s). shiat. so dead.
then again, it's impossible for me to go,
"OMG, he's like the COOLEST guy on earth. i SO think that he's CUTE?!" ( hypocritical as it is. )
but, i shall be nice anyway. well, for the sake of money? ( haha* )
seriously, he ain't that bad. gentleman enough to err... pay for his girlfriend's cab fare? err... gentleman enough to call me les? oh but well, he ain't that bad. ( is this what he wants to see? ) oh okie, this shall be it. so, please note that you are now under my COOL GUY list? haha* okie, at least you hang out with a cool guy. haha* opps.
disregarding that ( for the moment ), i really need to do something. like grades suck? ODD? as in really O D D and that's for the TESTS that have loomed and crushed me over the past 3 months. with a crushing grade.
secondly, an irritating arse ( sounds so vulgar. okie, lets call him mr.fugly. just as bad. but well, he is THAT bad. ) so yes, mr.fugly MUST get out of my life like NOW. if he like smses me again, i'm gonna go scolding pretty unpleasant stuff ( negative externality ) and so, like i'm gonna do a poll like here? 1 - I'M A LESBIAN. 2 - I'M ATTACHED? err... 3 - I'M A LESBIAN AND I'M ATTACHED?
actually i have to say that i'm lesbian since i already told him i'm lesbian. but, i dun wana cut my hair!!!!!!! omg, such sacrifice.
i think there is this very wrong aura around me. attract like poles - UGLY ppl. boo. haha* well.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
3:24 PM
just wondering if my life has indeed become less fortunate after that stupid series of unfortunate events movie.
things don't seem to be going my way.
my spelling is getting from bad to worse.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
11:07 AM
ahem, announcement. dearest ms fu ( not me of course ) finally no more single. haha* [ eh u owe mi a treat la. i said before our bdae de lor. hoohoo* so, coffee club? not forgetting my armani wallet. ]
finally i'm gonna be richer. haha* shall remove all discrimination and hatred for him ( calling me lesbian ), since i'm going to get a quarter of the enormous wealth. haha* right. i'm dreaming.
oh yes, i really really really need help to turn myself into a lesbian, a butch will do too. any ideas ppl? like i need to get a v.funky hairstyle and everything. i know it sounds stupid. but i just need to get rid of an idiot who asked me out, to K BOX? asshole.
i'm not trying to say that i'm way better than you in anywhere. i didn't want to despise you. like what you said, "maybe i'm just too insignificant to her" - LIKE DUH. you know it, then scram. irritant. i can't imagine myself ruining my reputation of a perfectly straight girl, just because i WANT TO MAKE U SCRAM AND STOP IRRITATING ME?
luckily ms fu msged me yesterday. if not i would have just gone bonkers. really have no idea what to do now. maybe i should go for a new haircut, and get more sports bra. erm what else can i do? ideas?
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Friday, March 25, 2005
8:09 PM
entertainment daily.
- one of my sec sch friends got married last year.
- another one gave birth in march. wonder if she's married tho.
a marriage certificate or a kid can't make a huge difference when he doesn't love you anymore. the only reason he may stay with you, is because it's a responsibility and obligation for him to.
being attached, i suppose, is no longer about simply liking your other half. rather, it seemed to have mutated into a status thing.
prioritisation of course, is totally different too. like boyfriends first, friends later. cynical me just hope that they'd break up, and her friends would just dump her aside, let her live in solitude.
like what someone said, i've never been through a relationship, so i LOOK FORWARD to a relationship like that of a moment to remember. however, this someone should reflect and go check out if he/she understands the true meaning of love. i suppose one wouldn't have to go through a relationship to understand the meaning of love. in fact, a relationship is probably another channel for you to understand the true meaning of love better. assuming that you CHERISH the other half, which of course, this someone does not.
enough about love and romance.
super fun day out with the peeps. disregarding the fact that nancy left without a word yesterday, and vanished from singapore, and went back to her homeland where there's an intrinsically useless police force and active demonstrators outside the singapore embassy. so much for bilateral ties. oh yes, forgot to mention that she went back because there MAYBE a wedding. wow, a wedding more urgent than that of shotgun.
and disregarding that we didn't have a very nice lunch, small omelette and crown prince swensens, and a very unfortunate movie at cine. pretty disappointing for these two aspects. but the banana crumble made up fer these. C=
a year and 4 months since all four of us took pics. christina seemed pretty amazed by our friendship. hopefully this won't be the last year that we're going out.
shall meet up with hippo again on tuesday. it's k box and the eye 10. hmm, actually i won't mind sacrificing the latter. shall listen to ms fu's critics first.
yes, JEFFREY IS STAYING. wohoo! C=
life rocks.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
9:27 PM
reasons why i want to avoid this RICH GUY. Simply because he :
- Spoils the image i have of a korean hunk ( although he's a wannabe )
- Will condemn my e810c ( he condemns slide phones )
- supposedly suffers from mental disorder? ( wears a jacket when it's 33 degree celcius? well. )
- has this fetish for STREETWEAR. ( eww... )
- is against roxy, ripcurl, etc. ( i.e surf brands. boo. )
- calls people, rather, person ( i.e ME ) a LESBIAN??? omg. FAINT.
- calls me DAO?!?! ( i'm so going to explode. )
- has BRACES. ( ewwwwwwww. )
- smokes? i mean i don't condemn people who smoke!?! but, it's just him.
eeeeeeee. so what if i'm avoiding you?! eeeeek. well, he's RICH. haha* OKAY, pray tt he don't see my blog? well ms fu doesn't go against the attraction of MONEY. so obviously... yup. shall not elaborate.
oh yes, went out with ms fu today. she's one crazy woman, rather, article. the MRT experience isn't very forgettable i suppose. really a DISGRACE to be with her. hahahaha* don't u AGREE?
TM is supposedly jinxed, at least for me. first i lost my money. now i lose my school badge. wonder what's next. oh ya, met lotsa cvss graduates in tampines area. met jansen the second time like this month? from heerens to pizza hut at TM. ( shopping to working. ) well, pretty obvious tt he is settling for poly. tot he wld have gone to meridian tho.
tt's abt it. a crazy day with ms fu at TM. haha* oh yes, haagen daz is not cheap. i knew tt. but it is diabetic too. not value for money.
gone decorating my handbook.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Friday, March 18, 2005
1:15 PM
is it the things around me?
or is it just myself?
sometimes i really wonder what is happening to my head. it never seem to stop hurting whenever i have to attend to something important.
even my civics tutor thinks that you can make it to school despite having headaches. well, i even go to school when i'm having some darn 'sexy' voice and irritating nose block. but sometimes, the headache is just killing you. if only she knows i suffer from migraine.
poor ras. really wonder what is happening over at debate now. can see tt she really feels darn screwed up.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
12:22 PM
Talk of the town - Where to go after A levels.
Go flip through the newpapers, you'll probably see 1/2 of the newspapers covered with advertisements of the various instituitions, about the degrees they offer, yada yada.
Grades is an issue. To achieve AAB A2 seems virtually impossible. This is my aim. If only this can be realised. Of course, i HAVE to put in loads of effort. so what if i achieve this grade? yes, i will have like a GALORE of choices ( to a certain extent ).
don't think i want to go into nus law school anymore. i will probably struggle and get suffocated by the environment there. ( one of my seniors, who attends practically EVERY yr 1 ( she's a yr 2 at that pt of time ) history lecture is heading for for law school... ) what makes you think i can survive in such environment?
ntu masscomm. haha* FORGET IT. won't want to go to a hospital environment to study. another GREEN area. NO WAY.
really interested in LSE. well, that remains as a dream. what if i can make it there? i can't bear to leave this place. not about being patriotic or the NE inculcated by the education system. it's the people. my parents, friends, relatives, and someone.
then again, it remains as a dream, and a what if.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
12:11 PM
green is EVERYWHERE, at least for me.
ever since i chose TJC as my second choice for PAE, i'm stuck with GREEN.
- GREEN uniform
- GREEN school environment
log into friendster. the first colour that greets you - GREEN.
what on earth is happening to my life??? i don't wanna be stuck with green all my life. eek!
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
8:27 PM
life can never be better for me during this march hols. there's no MCT!!! it's just replaced by GP, CHINESE A, BALA's and THOMPSON's HISTORY TESTS. excited? definitely not.
Actually, everyone has the "Bisexual tendancy". The only reason you may think you don't have such tendancies, is because you don't really have much idea of yourself. This may sound extremely defensive, but seriously, i don't believe that he is the only one with such tendancies!!! ahhhhhhh, i do have the tendancy to scream out loud NOW. ( or maybe at macs just now. )
Pretty depressing. on a lighter note, he knows how to admire guys as well. so, he might not be that egoistic right??? maybe i should stop "deceiting" myself. haha* ( look at TJ's english. tsk tsk. well, a YEAR THREE said that. names shall not be mentioned. )
gonna meet up with the bunch on good friday. wohoo!!! really really miss this bunch. haven't seen them in a million years. but i really meet kelly so often that i don't even see much of a change in her each time we meet up. hopefully WENDY is free ( the rest have blocked that day, EXCEPT YOU!!! hmmph. ).
irritating ms fu just cannot come with a proper bag. 1st was a black paper bag, then a plastic box file. what's next? NTUC plastic bag? of course, this gives me another option for her b'day gift. so ms fu, what do you want? she really can irritate the hell out of you.
- goes to the washroom every dunno-how-many-minutes
- stuck in a dumb lunch situation. btwn a good friend and a _________.
- never seem to be able to get _______ to be punctual.
- she has a difficult to handle friend. ( not WENLIN of course! )
- luckily, she has a very cute funny friend - WENLIN!
headed for garden's coffee bean. PACKED. everyone's mugging for their MCTs. so manda ended up at home surfing the net. ( i know i lack alot of links, but i'm not very bothered to type the details. )
gonna catch a horror movie with leen, the eye number dunno what. of course, this was her suggestion. my prediction - a FRIEND of hers will be catching it with her. well, she just denied this possibility. by the way, going to pass a pressie to a friend of mine that day. that's all!
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Monday, March 14, 2005
9:38 PM
i can't stand yukiko in the drama serial. her existence just becomes redundant. in fact, she is an external externality of her parents' reproduction. stupid character, stupid attitude. thinking that she's the pretiest on earth. if only she is disfigured. haha*
yes, things are happy now. really hope that school will never reopen.
oh yes, i'm no longer the honorary treasurer.. but sadly, i'm still in the dumb committee. despite begging and reasoning, things just don't seem to work. well, ed and i have a pact - we are not going for any meetings from now on. C=
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
1:50 AM
In 1987 (the year you were born)
- Ronald Reagan is president of the US
Wall Street crashes sending the Dow Jones Industrial average down 22.6%
President Reagan and Soviet Leader Gorbachev sign an unprecedented missile reduction agreement
Televangelist Jim Bakker resigns amid accusations of sexual infidelity and financial impropriety
Wall Street financier Ivan Boesky is sentenced to three years in prison in an insider trading scandalGary Hart withdraws from the 1988 presidential campaign under accusations of infidelity
The Food and Drug Administration approves anti-AIDS drug AZT
Prozac makes its debut in the USBow Wow, Joss Stone, and Hilary Duff are born
Minnesota Twins win the World SeriesNew York Giants win Superbowl XXI
Edmonton Oilers win the Stanley Cup
Three Men and a Baby is the top grossing film
"Walk Like An Egyptian" by The Bangles spends the most time at the top of the US charts
Full House, Married with Children, and Star Trek: The Next Generation premiere
* it's because of you,That star exists.
12:15 AM
I am HAPPY. C=
Life is much better now. the soap opera has finally arrived at the finale. lead actress ( me ) no longer talks to the producer. the other lead actress however, continues to be the SUPPORTIVE friend of the producer. HA* seems to me like the other actress, okie, put it in a less confusing way, the director ( not that she is mean, i mean, i don't mean that SOMEONE else is mean, but, the director seemed to have brought this entire situation to such a quick end. ) seems to be on better terms with the producer now. director seems to be like making a great sacrifice, in order for the 2 lead actresses to be less tortured. just don't know how to put it across to her like she don't have to put herself in such a spot? why put yourself through such torment? this is probably what you call a sacrifice. i really appreciate it.
now that the soap opera has come to an end. i shall declare that the 2 lead actresses are leen and i. got leen the anklet that she thought was pretty from perlini's silver and a letter. ( well, perlini's silver is having discount now. go check it out. ) so, this crazy gurl started crying in the bus. erm, yes, laughing and crying. so glad that i wasn't with her. hahaha* ruin my reputation. hee*
really appreciate leen. tho dumbo yws questioned my 'straightness'. i would have said that i'm les if he was *leen, u noe.* maybe guys just don't understand women's sensitivity. ( probably that's why we are of different genders. ) well, maybe he might think that friends don't deserve that much care, concern and sometimes tears. guys, gurls don't just cry for YOU. boo. aniwaes, really super duper happy that leen could see from my pt of view. *so touched* leen, tnks for everything man. sometimes, just run out of words to express what i want to say ( which explains my GP grade. ) simply treasure this friendship.
caught hitch with wulandari. yes, we skipped BP mentoring shit. haha* oops. went all the way to NP and we decided to rot at KAP. domination of hcjc. inferior man. :( oh, found a cute hcjc guy. wulan's friend. hmm.. ATTACHED. :( haha* well, eye candy of the day. hitch rawks. seriously, go catch it. rather than BOOGEYMAN. hahahaha* rite leen???
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
8:43 PM
this was supposed to be yesterday's entry.
the showdown ( climax ) was today. interesting as it was, the show didn't go my way this morning. wanted to sit with the other lead actress, but apparently she had to hang out with the producer. so, imposed junnie's group for that whole 45 mins, which i felt was really dreary. can you imagine imposing the other clique just because of your own problem. WAIT. i mean, SOMEONE else's ( i.e PRODUCER ) problem, and ya, it became, don't know how, MY PROBLEM. really, fuggingly pissed.
couldn't take it anymore. LITERALLY dragged the other lead actress towards the humanities room. well, the climax ( and anti-climax ) came in here. i was happily looking and admiring the gift dearest other lead actress gave me, when suddenly, my phone vibrated. WOW!!! PRODUCER msged me!!!
"u and ____ the same, owaes gif me lian se kan. i am sick of guessing ur feelings. show me that face like as if i juz killed your entire family n ignore me. it sux." this is not the exact sms, but it is almoz the same. i quote the BOLD bits. like hello producer, your family kanna killed, mine still haven't la. fugging shit. but anyways, i told the producer that i simply hate this dumb threesome thingy.
now guess what? she probably thinks that she is the legitimate one and i am the one applying for some threesome club. like hello, who is the INTRUDER? i seriously would like to ostracise you, only if i could, i would.
your words are scary. i've never seen someone scarier than you. can you imagine, after falling out with someone so close to you and you now turn your back against her, just because you are trying to build another friendship that you deem to be plausible. let me tell you, NO WAY. don't make yourself seem like you are trying to accomadate me, you know why, it sounds terribly gross. seriously, i would be ashamed if i were to be in whatever threeish group with you. seriously, i won't want to live in fear everyday, having to think what is the next scary thing you might say to either me or someone else. UGH.
of course, the other lead actress may not agree with what i say. maybe she listened it from the horse's mouth, making it more believable. but from a secondary source, seriously, nothing more than propaganda. it just sounds like some boot licking and trying to make us sound angelic, and tada, the threeish group is formed. BOO. stop dreaming.
think i've never had so much grouses in tj before, rather, in my entire lifetime? of course, i TRIED not to take sides, and look at it from a wider perspective. but seriously, i think the facts are already reflected, and yes, the statistics don't seem very favourable for you. statistics of what, go figure it out.
really hope my class chairman attends school asap, maybe in that way, the soap opera would come to an end. maybe i should start thinking about tomorrow's lessons. she really should stay far far away from me. it has never occured to me that a person, who was once so close to me, was this scary.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Monday, March 07, 2005
8:45 PM
SO many things happened just within a day. like the climax of some drama serial. hopefully, the finale will arrive soon. seriously, i don't even know who is the director of this serial, rather, soap opera. of course, it is rather obvious who the PRODUCER is. ( cum lead actress )
like wad leen said "overwhelmed with feelings, thoughts, yada yada." ( amazed by her "shi qing hua yi"-ness. )
it was less than 24 hours since i heard ALL that i missed out during my 1 and a quarter year in tjc. when you begin to look at things from the hindsight, you will probably realise how grosteque some things can be.
it was less than 18 hours since i last cried like shit because of this idiotic mess. really want to thank alot of people who gave me the support and advice... especially eeee*, junnie, tai tai... if not for you guys, i'll probably be still crying and facing this all myself.
it was also less than 12 hours since i told leen about the whole truth and my "feelings, thoughts, yada yada" about this shit. of course, it was less than 12 hours than leen got flabberghasted and, grossed out?
it was less than 6 hours before i met up with leen at compass point ( for mac flurry ) and headed for j8 to walk around and take pics. guess we bitched for a long long long time before we met up at cp and after we parted at j8. i really really really cheered up alot after meeting up with leen to bitch, slack and rot. can't imagine if we really would have to drift apart.
always thought that leen would be happier if she have someone else as her best pal in tjc. always thought that i'm not good enough a friend to be her best pal here. sometimes, just think that maybe if i leave her with the friend i deem to be good enough as her best pal would make her happier. but maybe, i'm wrong after all.
had a heart to heart talk over the i-don't-know-how-many-hours. so glad we told each other everything. the worsening of the friendship problem is literally spine-chilling. ( sounds like some ghost story, but it is probably that scary. ) was so afraid that the domino theory would apply in friendships as well. but i'm really fortunate that there is a pivotal point in this vicious cycle. ( you probably can use stupid theories like injections and withdrawals to explain this. but ya, it's econs. )
now i can only hope that leen and i can have a strong friendship. hopefully, this bond cannot be broken. after examining our timetable, we realised that we can only spend 6 periods, which is 4 and a half hours with each other in the entire week. short as it is, but i don't think we really have much of a choice. if only we can learn to be like someone ( producer ), than probably this vicious cycle would end here. and the whole soap opera would arrive at its finale, like tomorrow.
you'll probably question why we cannot just let this soap opera come to a closure. simply because we cannot bring ourselves to do what she has done. "what goes around, comes around" karma, i guess. but sometimes, i can't help but entertain the thought of breaking this "karma" thingy. then again, if she has already realised that she pissed me off, it's time she start to wonder WHY she pissed me off. and next, HOW she can NOT piss me off any further.
the only way that leen and i can probably communicate is through sms ( when she is with the producer ), that is for ALL GP, ECONS, CIVICS, C MATHS, COMMON LUNCH BREAKS, BREAKS ( that i MAY or MAY NOT have - i shall not explicitly spell out the breaks - though i must say that i DO NOT have breaks for HISTORY, ECONS, CHINESE A, GP and AO MATHS - which leaves me with breaks during GEOGRAPHY, ART, MATHS, LEP ). OPPS, did i kind of spell out the producer's combination? SO SORRY. bleah. and yea, communicate through our only SIX periods in a WEEK - chinese A. i really do cherish chinese A lessons from now on. hopefully lao shi will allow me to talk more, please... boo.
i've thought it through, can't be as nice as i thought i can be. shall grab leen to sit with me during GP tomorrow morning. if i did not follow the script, producer, very sorry. sometimes, you don't just take tom, dick or harry to be your spare tyre. do spare a thought for them, though they have very normal names. ( yes, i know it's lame. ) so, don't think you can determine their roles. sometimes, they can live better off without your existence.
i know i will feel extremely tremendously bad tomorrow morning if the producer is left with no one to sit with. hence, people who are reading my blog, and you know who the producer is, kindly provide a seat for her? haha* okie, at least don't make me feel so bad? if not, i'll probably donate leen back to the spare tyre role.
i am mean, selfish and bad. i admit.
LEEN - YOU ROCK.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Sunday, March 06, 2005
2:14 PM
ain't blogs supposed to serve as a platform for us to express our true feelings of a particular matter or event?
but it seems like alot of issues that i have raised in my blog seemed to have made known to alot of people.
isn't it obvious that when i post the entries instead of relating it to people a signal that i just want to vent my frustrations? it is only by expressing it here will i be able to prevent things from worsening. ( assuming that no one relates the content of the blog )
thus, think before telling people contents of blogs.
-creating a new blog add soon. i'll give you guys ( ya u know who u are ) the add.-
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, March 05, 2005
11:28 PM
the two entries before this sounded alil overbearring, rather, not politically correct. hence, in order to prevent another conflict in my class i decided to pick out the politically correct bits.
FUGLY SHIT. so pissed. these are some of the statistics:Out of 10 people whom i've begged for money,- 5 walked past me when i said "excuse me, would you..."
- 3 SHUNNED me.
- 2 courteously said "NO" or "I HAVE NO CHANGE" when she hit her pocket and the coins just "jingled". OH HOW NICE.
- ONLY one n ONLY one gave me about 20 cents.
and i think i asked almost a hundred people?
may those 9 out of 10 people be the cause of the donation in future. boo.
fortunately, the senior citizens helped me quite abit. BUT, idiotic caucasians didn't even donate a single cent. how generous.
i really must give credit to kelly's father. seriously generous. gave me a whole handful of coins when i visited his shop. if not for him, i would have slapped someone who made me extremely pissed.
SO leen, you prolly know who i'm referring to eh? yup, seriously la, dun think it's very possible for me to hang out with her. short term maybe, not long term. so yea, other day if wana go out with her, dun ask me k? i suppose i will flare up like today again. boo.
Anyway, the problem probably lies with me and me alone. i have a seriously strong intuition that i really will drift away from leen. well leen, my intuition is almost, never wrong.
so yup, i have decided to sit with tai tai, jun xian n guo hao for econs this coming monday. decided.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
2:14 PM
top arts student: jonathan koh.
wohoo.
heard tjc did quite well this year. does this spell hope for us?
i wonder.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
10:58 AM
decided to place that entry as a private post. thought through quite alot. maybe if dey would have read that post, then everything would be a mess. maybe, this is why my friend ended up in this vicious cycle of becoming very emotional. eventually, the only outcome would be her friend becoming pissed.
so i have entered this vicious cycle. this is just the first step. i really hope to step out of this quicksand. can someone tell me how?
anonymous - whoever you are, i wana thank you for giving me that piece of advice. if u have any problems, share it with your friends okie... i believe that you don't have to face so many limitations when 'confronting' your friends..
eileen ee - hey gurl... thanks alot! never knew that someone has the same feelings as me. now that you don't face the problem anymore, must teach me how to get out of this okie...
so, there are alot of people around me to help. now the only person who is dragging me down is myself. cried for quite awhile yesterday night. if only my junior can understand this, i would have shared it with him. rather, i don't think he'll ever bother about it.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
