Saturday, April 23, 2005
6:58 PM
always wanted to drop you a message. somehow i received a call from you instead.
i never wanted to react that way. i was just hoping to chat and check out how's life over there.
maybe i just cannot be oblivious to what is happening around me.
maybe you just changed along the way. so much so that you are no longer you.
maybe time just changed all of us.
it's sad that you're known to be scary.
i always hoped that it wasn't you.
but i just cannot ignore the fact that it's just you.
will you wish me happy birthday?
don't really think so.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
6:40 PM
harassed on tuesday.
yet, accused for harassing four guys from ST.GABRIELS.
throwing messages like "i like you... see you tomorrow..." while these asses were cycling.
accused for being ANGIE.
came in my house and looked for ANGIE.
ended up ransacking through my papers.
wanted to check my handwriting.
my dad flared up.
called the police.
being supposedly effective, they reached only 40 mins after we called.
wohoo. like i'm a pedophile.
THEY SUCK.
and my reputation is so fuggingly ruined.
and i went TM that day.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
12:41 AM
and SHUMIN!!! i just received letter!!! hehe*
general comment:
maybe it is the innate problem of a class. with all the cliques around, it is just difficult for one to break free from a clique where him/her is not happy in. simply because it would be difficult for him/her to join another clique. rather, it would be tough for one to be wandering around the class with no one to be with. this is probably why people hit the limit of their tolerance level, but are unable to break free.
realised that jcs have made many of us much more independent. it is at this point, where we become oblivious to what is happening around us. it takes time to be numb. and some of my friends, can actually survive through their breaks without being with anyone. i admire these guys.
ms fu tnks so much for being there! C=
sudden surge of emotions. this sounds so drama. nvm. good to be drama at times.
if only we can turn back time
if only i can return to those happy moments
if only i haven't step into jc.
i may not be who i am today.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
10:58 PM
i am DISTURBED by some person in my class.
i am of course, already disturbed by one apparent one. now another one. gosh. so lets name the former as P and D for the latter.
D confided in P. Sadly, P doesn't have a very good impression of D. and continues confiding when P thinks otherwise of what D says. Hmm NICE facade. My inference - P doesn't like D. Then from another source, it is said that P does not not like D. WOW. amaze amaze. then what is hate? oh yes, hate is when you don't even bother talking to another person. yes that's hate. opps, but i didn't say that i hate anyone. do not get it wrong. when i disregard one's existence, it is just being IGNORANT.
and i use Stalin as an analogy of D. D suffers from the same paranoia as Stalin. and like how Stalin went around killing his opponents. ( opponents in this case, are people who just dislike D. ) just because he thinks that they are trying to overthrow him. ( which does not apply in this case. ) face it, Stalin had a screwed up attitude, and that is what D has. and seriously, this is why people move away from D. isn't it obvious? like go reflect before you start accusing people. because YOU AIN'T THAT GREAT. sorri. YOU SUCK.
i just wonder why can't some people just tell people straight off the face. like face it. you need to face it sooner or later. whatever. weird.
went out with hippo and wendy yesterday. poor hippo down with flu and sore throat. get well soon yea. so sad so no kbox. leen went for kbox instead. boo. jealous jealous. ( erm not who you are with of course. haha* ) haven been there for a long long time. hippo the friday before labour day yea!!! whee!!! time to k box! looking forward. C= oh, forgot to mention. bus broke down on the way to heartland mall with hippo. and another case of boss scolding subordinate.
scary incident. lee sheng jie is sooooo ugly. haha* and that discussion was held along the heartland mall stretch. nice voice, bad face. tsk tsk. plastic surgery will help. or maybe a blurred vision will help too. hahaha* meanie mean me.
out with kelly and nancy today. caught pacifier. sure to have a good laugh. C= i give it 4 out of 5 bites! had great fun today from like wisma to cine to taka. coffee club dinner! we bought similar pouches and similar hp accesory with nancy. what else? hairband, stationary... and yes, alot of CRAPPING and funny incidents. so glad to be out again. C= cant wait for the next outing!!! kelly n nancy, you guys have some ugly poses in my phone. shall threaten you all with that. haha* blackmail!
and yes, KELLY PEH, listen up. MOTHERS' DAY!!! after spelling out EXPLICITLY to them that my birthday is on mothers' day and both avoided it like nobody's business. sob!!! i don't care. TAKE NOTE OF WISHLIST. actually a projectshopBLOODbros bag will suffice. hahaha*
simply lurve the bunch. C= and yes, not forgetting MS FU! ( not myself la... i'm not so zi lian. )
you? maybe not.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
2:12 PM
only to realise that you're not forgotten.
when will you ever be forgotten?
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
11:07 AM
cvss lost the quarter finals. don't really have much to say. v.v.v.depressed. pioneer's sucky standard just makes it amazing for them to get into quarters. and they WON the quarters. simply because cv's is worse. 1st, no rebuttals. 2nd, despite looking confident, came up with rebuttals that ran made it seem like a parallel case. 3rd, Geneva conventions disappeared from her. didn't finish her rebuttals. FUG. yes, i cried. so much for the effort.
the mentality of one can simply be seen through a tag. a simple tag explains it all. rather, a simple nickname explains it all. at least i've seen ppl daring enough, rather NORMAL enough to put their name, i.e derrick. not like some asshole, who is so useless and needs a word from the dictionary to express his dissatisfaction through his nickname. this probably explains why he can only tag a one liner, and use a simple word bitch. apparently, if i need a matching word that would be BASTARD. but, i don't think this suits him. because he is way beyond one i suppose. sad sad.
celebrated stef's bdae yest. bought her a miserable birthday cake. had dinner at crystal jade and we were like the LAST to leave. this probably explains why all the waiters and waitresses were crowding around us. fun fun time. C=
that's it.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
4:21 PM
entertaining piece of news. following the interesting post, where i was called NAIVE girl ( of course, i hope that no negative connatation exists. )
"ooh good. the girls in my chinese class have discovered my blog... haha i've discovered that before those tags that i've conveniently deleted." - seriously, why bother to delete one's tag when u've done NOTHING WRONG, which of course, is only from YOUR point of view. like, i don't bother to delete the tag of that smart ass ( anonymous ) who tagged my board, regardless of how daft he is. i do not discriminate people, ha.
it just makes one ponder upon a guy's guts. like how this stupid ass in my sec sch, who threatened to throw away my DNT folio. oh yes, saying that he is not afraid of me and throwing a pen at this chao ah beng are seriously wrong moves. at least, he is smart enough to let me know that he really don't have enough guts.
so much for GUYS. and yes, this ass who can never ever understand the million causal leaps he made throughout the debate.
3 interesting guys for you.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Monday, April 04, 2005
7:32 PM
oh yes. how interesting. someone called me a "naive girl". yes, there are negative connatations to it ( in this sense ).
some ass is tagging my board. i just hope that you are not the guy with a mouth the size that of mr B's waist of course. if not, i would really feel sorry for you. maybe there is this inverse relationship between the size of your mouth and the size of your brain.
of course, i hope that you are not the one. then again, just to quench the thirst of your inquisitive puny brain, i must let you know that whatever is in my blog is for the eyes of the reader, and not the ears of others who didn't read my blog. if only the puny brain of yours can decipher what i'm trying to say.
i understand that there are some people reading my blog. so i better be careful of what i say. and yes, mr ____ the big thing that leen and i were talking about is the wedding of the century. you know the bird nest feast. erm yup. well, i welcome your tag too. i don't discriminate you just because you call me les. hahaha*
okie, debate is going on and on. i'm sooooo tired.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
9:35 PM
THEY MADE IT. C= MADE IT INTO QUARTERS.
i just didn't know how to react. i couldn't smile. i couldn't cry. it was simply a sense of satisfaction. the time i spent with them did not go to waste. C=
really proud of them. really glad that i didn't give up.
like what ed said, i should be realistic. but, it's difficult, simply because the amount of effort you put in, isn't reflected in the results. of course, one won't be able to understand unless he/she is in one's shoes.
especially after pre-empting a WHOLE debate, and SOMEONE screws the whole thing up. it's worse when he/she comes up to ask you what did he/she do wrong. unless you're really daft, you should have realised that you were the one who screwed up the whole debate. so much for going through the rebuttals with someone like you. maybe there isn't much substance up there. maybe you should go concentrate on promoting the kidney dialysis thing. maybe, what you need is not kidney dialysis, but dialysis for the brain or sth. there could have been a beautiful win. sadly, this someone just cannot contextualise stuff.
rapper, don't think that you rock, because you were merely conveying my message to the adjudicators. it's all YOUR FAULT. BOO.
lots happened recently. not very bothered about it tho. but i'm happy. C=
bought a few more tops today. happy happy. C=
more trg next week. okie. i gotta cheer up.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
