Monday, August 29, 2005
9:14 PM
things are not as simple as they seem.
no wonder the introduction of the word 'facade'.
i hate my life now.
get me out of it.
Welcome to my life.
i never thought that i was naive.
but, WHY AM I SO NAIVE THIS TIME.
ohmygawd.
i'm naive after all.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
12:17 AM
if you are trying to see how well i fare as a reporter/journalist in future, check out my Futile attempt to succeed.
LESS THAN HALF of the JC 2 cohort assembled at Temasek square for the last time, before they go for their study break. Many were enthusiastic, when Principal of Teejaysee said "i'm really touched by the fact that the J2 students are back today!" We can only infer that she has relatively bad eyesight, as opposed to the many other J2 students who realised the disappearance of their MANY many classmates.
As every typical, traditional school in Singapore would do, the mundane concert would inevitably take the longest of time during the celebration. The marginal utility curve has proven itself once again, even in the most abstract sense ( i.e in a case like this ). The interest one has for the very 'ENTERTAINING' concert, varies indirectly with the number of years one has been in the conventional education system. However, we cannot deny the fact that the SC's attempt to bring up the spirits of the really bored crowd.
The class outing this round has way exceeded it's 'usual six'. I suppose only two didn't make it today, with one sick and one mugging. ( P.S MS EE PLS FOR GOODNESS SAKE TAKE CARE OF URSELF AT THIS PT OF TIME. ) Molly has indeed left an etch in our minds, may it be positive or negative. I believe we have too, left an etch in her mind. Be it getting to know a fatherly figure, or a 'fiery' figure, who may at any point of time burn her, or slice her with the chopper ( RIGHT HUMAN TORCH? ), we must have scared the shit out of her ( and i must have been out of my mind to clear her puke. what the hell is wrong with me? ).
OKIE ENOUGH. my attempt is not only futile, but it's mutating into my typical blog entry.
Met Hippo today!!! Yea! Loads of fun as usual!!!
Ms Fu!!! Thanks for that mooncake! i shall savour it with Chinese tea tml. C=
Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KETTLE!!!
loads of pics to upload. another day maybe. i'm so tired. btw, huang yida ain't that good.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Friday, August 19, 2005
11:59 PM
so many thoughts,
so much to say,
yet i got no idea where to begin.
superstar results.
kelly got in!!!
UNFORTUNATELY, weilian got in too.
WHY!!! YIKES.
Junyang's image is improving.
and leon is amazingly cute.
Jane is fantastic.
Hainan Jie will hit the weakest spot.
Ostracised's mood is adversely affected.
Dearie, no matter what is happening,
take it in stride.
i'm taking it in my stride,
u must too man!
don't affect your mood okie?
i v.guilty u noe!!!
be happy!
if not im gonna be angry!!!
buden as if i angry affect u rite?
okie, just STAY HAPPY okie? kuai le kuai le!!!
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
10:24 PM
Fantastic.
now everything is out.
i now finally noe how she feels.
so i cry i win.
great.
if only i have tears now,
i will squeeze them out.
if you think that, that is my aim.
let it be then.
i'm scheming.
and i'm dying for sympathy from people.
doesn't it just boil down to the fact that problems are never solved?
it's always the same in all situations.
if only chocs and cookies are solutions to problems,
i will be grinning from ear to ear now.
i'm selfish and unreasonable.
i SO gotta agree.
so much so that i wonder why i stay by my friend whenever she's in need.
i'm satisfied for the effort you've put in,
but maybe when i put it on the balance,
i see my end sinking down.
isn't it supposed to balance?
For all i know,
i will still be here if you need me.
it's a pivotal point.
it's either side we are moving towards.
for what is happening now,
i'm really pessimistic.
i've changed my perspective of people.
because people change.
Zixin, thanks for changing,
and my perspective of you has changed.
i'm glad you've changed yours too.
lets cherish the next one week. C=
Peeps, thanks SO much. C=
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
9:14 PM
i was just thinking of the number of times i've made my bestie happy, and the number of times i've made her sad.
then i thought of the number of times i've made her happy, and sad.
maybe i left out alot on the parts when i made her sad. i realised that i stood by her. but she wasn't there for me, when i hoped she was. i looked around me, everyone was there with their bestie. the whole table of peeps were, except me. it's worse when you're falling ill, and ur bestie ain't there for u.
but how much should i expect from her? so many people have to be mobilised to ask her just to do something.. how can i even expect her to be there for me rite?
or is it because i expect too much? precisely y i keep blaming myself for stupidly giving in. y should i even bother waking up at 7oddAM rite? just to console a friend who might not be appreciative. maybe what sohtahpia said is rite, u gif for e sake of givin. u shdn't hope for something in return. maybe i just shouldn't expect too much.
and maybe i shouldn't give so much.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
9:19 PM
There goes my LV cherry wallet.
Sold out around the world.
Can Patricia Mok sell it to me at retail price?
i won't really mind.
it's okie.
i've set my eyes on something else.
LV denim handbag.
but i really need to cultivate more feelings for that bag.
i just don't love it as much as that wallet.
WHY!!! what a disappointment.
everything resembles the cherry wallet's design.
in fact, everything reminds me of it.
ranging from cherry mugger to the auntie's top at Thasevi Prata Shop.
and my Dad took the last popcicle choc available in the fridge.
whatthehell.
leaving the last bar of choc in the fridge.
my fortnightly supplies ( i.e mon cheri choc, kinder bueno, popcicle choc ) all gone.
why does he need SO many chocs?
hmm okie.
gonna be like away from blogging for weeks again.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
3:14 PM
i'm losing faith in everything.
i'm not giving it a shot.
because i fear.
i fear revealing the fragile side of me.
i prefer things the way it is now.
i will be less troubled.
give me a day of TOTAL free speech,
like there is this day when no one can sue me for slander or any shit,
i will condemn every single microbe of those that i hate.
but it's not like as if those i don't like can afford to sue me.
okie, i sound super bitchy now.
anyway, i admit that i'm more or less one.
so who the hell gives a damn?
yesterday's bbq was more or less a flop.
until like towards the end, it became like better?
anyway those hai sing peeps ( other than the 2 sec 4s, who apparently are way more mature than THOSE kiddos. ) were DISGUSTING.
i can't believe that they said "let's start eating" or "kai1 dong4" in some foreign language.
if i didn't make it out wrongly,
it should be jap.
what an insult to that language.
typical fake von dutch girls. CHEAPO.
okie, that's all for these few days.
i'm not very happy.
so ya.
just don't irritate me.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
9:14 PM
Haven't been updating for like dino years.
Quick updates.
Didn't get to meet my class peeps on monday.
feeling really guilty.
and it's worse when my dearie invisible woman and human torch won the bet.
boo.
caught the fireworks with hippo.
really pretty!
saw FIR and we got really high.
haha*
wanted to catch THE MAID.
but as usual,
i simply lack the guts.
was out with Ms Fu last Friday evening.
got 2 pretty earrings.
and it's SO FREAKINGLY CHEAP!
decided to get C.Chew gift certs instead.
Aussino is the choice.
i think i'm giving it a shot.
maybe i will be happier then.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
1:40 AM
the kbox session was amazing.
SOOO FUN!!!
photos soon to come.
went out with Ms Fu just now.
Hung around 'FE Fashion Store'.
Keep meeting the seven dragon balls that i'm super allergic to.
Especially those within that spectrum of colour range.
then i saw Pure pink stuff.
like what's next?
i'm back to bitching about her.
Looks like Ms Fu and i are back to status quo.
Tho i'm just praying that i hear less about it.
Pray that all i hear,
will always be what i heard while hanging out with Ostracised.
hahaha*
gd nite ppl!
* it's because of you,That star exists.
12:44 AM
i wonder how many buckets of tears i've shed over the past week.
i thought to myself, is my bestie worth the tears?
then again, is it worth giving up a bestie just like that?
Nope.
i'm so glad that this friendship has been salvaged.
certain issues have yet to be resolved.
i cannot accept,
and i cannot forget.
the wound is too deep,
all that would remain,
would prolly be the scar that serves as a lesson for me.
it's my fault,
my lousy judgement.
i'm beginning to question another person as well.
it's disgusting to see the protection this person would provide for the other.
unrequited.
flabberghasted.
i just love the peeps more and more.
the sweeties, hainan jie n co.
thanks for all that you guys have done,
the postcard,
the advice, etc.
if not for that,
i will never try to accept or give in.
but i know,
even if i try,
i will still be myself.
i won't be entirely happy,
but i will probably live with her existence for the next 15 days or so?
hi bye friends?
no way.
yikes.
i'm happy for what it is now.
Ms Fu you are a wonderful bestie. C=
PROJECT MS FUs coming soon.
* it's because of you,That star exists.
